Red September part 1

The year this story takes place is the year nearly everything happened to me. it was the year i moved from the city to a backward god forsaken town!! for my parent to drag me all the way to nowhere well its certainly NOT a dream come true !! It was the year where my father discovered an itch that later became cancer and soon took all his hair and his life away . It was a year a serial killer wearing a white suit roamed the country side  leaving pretty young girls dead in the corn fields but mostly it was the year i tried to be someone else and went insanely  head over heels for love. i don't know whether it was a fantasy or a never ending nightmare it seemed like the whole world was about to end. in the beginning i didn't see any of this in my future i just crossed an x on my calender and suddenly i was this new girl in a new town that no one noticed. i don't know why the idea came to me when it did but i instantly knew it would make life more interesting . Don't we all wanna be somebody different sometimes? someone smarter, sexier and bolder then we really are? or maybe it was just that i looked in the mirror and saw someone who's just as sad and lonely as me. Its like i have so much love to give but no one to give it to, or maybe i just went a little crazy. For a while there it seemed like craziness is in the air we where all just breathing it in . standing there in the middle of the forest all the life suddenly went out of me and i was demoted from hero to victim but with that shift of responsibility came a grate peace that im finally where i belong. distant but close to paradise , closer then i can ever knowingly admit to myself . Yes that was the day i fell in love with the murderous ego inside of me. The day where i slowly discovered that little girls insides , the day i cut open my first victim .....